Hold on Loosely

So, here we are: New Year’s Eve. The end is here. Well, the end of the year, that is… but also the death of my writing goals for this year. I’m planning to shut everything off and bang out a few thousand words before I have to give up the ghost.

However, another door opens with the new year. Almost everyone, myself included, thrives on the idea of a fresh start. New year, new you. Even if we failed ourselves sometimes, even if we fell short of our goals, we learned something from it. I learned that I have to focus on one project at a time and see it through. I learned editing is not a one stop shop for me. I learned that it’s okay if you don’t write every single day. I mean, sure, that’s the advice we hear so often, but I’ve found a lot of advice just doesn’t work for me. I’d rather write three days out of the year and absolutely love it than every day and delete half the shit anyway.

Writing is like a relationship for me. I have to nurture it, but sometimes I have to give it space. I have to grow with it and fall in love with it over and over again. Hold on loosely.

Forcing myself to write makes me loathe it. I hate what I write then I have to edit the hell out of it which I hate even more. When it becomes something I’m doing out of obligation then what am I doing in this relationship at all?

That’s the thing they never tell you. It’s not just about finding something that you love, it’s about staying in love with it. Each story, each day I learn more about my relationship. I learn what works and what doesn’t. I fully believe that every scraped story or red mark on the page makes us stronger. My goals for this new year will be more accessible.

New year, new us. Take your successes as well as your failures into the new year.

I flirted with the idea of a resolution list or a bucket list or something of that nature. I have so many goals right now that it’s almost discouraging to write them all down. So, I’m opting for one this year:

Finish a novel.

I don’t want to overwhelm myself with publication or anything else, I don’t want to restrain my creativity with which project yet. But I’m saying now, by the end of 2015 I will have a publication ready manuscript.

What will you do this year?

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About emmaleigh234

Navigating the journey of becoming an author. I've always loved stories, and I want to write the ones I want to read. View all posts by emmaleigh234

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